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Dazed & Confused

January 04 2010

sex

It's almost 3am as I pen yet another post regarding the unfairer sex. However this post differs from others insofar as I am writing this one revealing something I neither care for nor readily admit to. The dreaded V word...dare I utter it for fear that it becomes too tangible and therefore takes up permanant residency in my psyche'? Vulnerability There! I said it! Despite all rational thought and due process, I sit here pondering what it is that could lie behind an abrupt cessation of an amazing & fulfilling series of communications (not limited to cyber space) from someone with whom I connected with both on an emotional and physical level. And, to the best of my knowledge, was entirely reciprocal. No amateur dramatics here, I am not mourning over the  loss of a potential partner or lover, this is, or was something I believed to be a real, viable friendship which did not lend itself to the limitations mentioned previously. I am, as the subject title suggests, dazed and confused. It is my sincere hope that any who happen to read this post will take it as it is intended, that being a very real reaching out to those to whom have shared similar experiences and who may, in some way, shape or form may just reach back. J xx

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  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    What you doing up at this time of the day....hellls bells what am i doing up at this time of the day.....i am blaming the kids!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Quoting 'kjandnev'What you doing up at this time of the day....hellls bells what am i doing up at this time of the day.....i am blaming the kids! I blame the damn smarties, gender based 'over thinking', being on holidays and out of routine, being on holidays and little to do other than ponder the actions of others, not enough sex, not any sex, RHP, MEN... and...FREUD! Amen.... ps: thanks for dropping by xx

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Vulnerable to the charms of the opposite sex, regardless of circumstance! so who is the lucky devil ?Cheers Nev

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Someone mean...RHP mean...lol

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Nuthin but trouble  young lady.....

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    No its ok i not mean! Guess we will find out in due course ...or not!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Smarties....alll that chocalate and sugar!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    MEN.. There are of course, exceptions...'flutters eyelashes at guess who?" lol Oh not to worry, Im not going to hold out on you with this one Nev am living and breathing all experiences (and writing about them as they happen....or havent you noticed?..lol)

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    can't be told !

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    to swear off smarties and all meaty bites? LOL

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Where did ya get that from?....HUGE admission here Nev (seeing as how its just you and me here) I'm a social scientist....betcha didnt see that coming...LOL

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    To be honest i never quite know what to make of you, you have this really brisk and witty exterior, but underneath i suspect is a very lovely lady, with a heart of gold, who has perhaps been hurt in the past.....yet we still don't know your name! You are a bit of an Enigma, and everyone is searching for the code!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    will be reading this tommorrow.....

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Oh please don't go all freud on me...just make me cry... AND I DONT DO THAT...so not a girl...well I am but not of the sooki lala variety lol The hurt thing...who hasnt been beaten around the heart and soul by our fellow human beings BUT..come out the other side with a whole lot of positives to show for it. Gosh! I really am quite defensive about that arent I?...Oooo, this is cutting edge stuff here Nev! Do you charge by the hour or do you bulk bill?...Perhaps mates rates and professional courtesy apply? lol ps: come visit me in my 'cone of silence' and I'll gladly tell you my name. Just a privacy thing cos one just never knows who could be lurking around RHP!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Got nothing to lose Nev! C'ept of course my dignity but what the heck! Who needs that anyway?....LOL

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    and you are back in the Forum..... ok....don't go anywhere...lol....can't be chasing you round all over the fair!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Dignity is allways a good thing!.....tell me about (am i allowed to mention his name?)

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Gotta stick a post it note to my forehead to remember such things must've caught the no name no packdrill virus from the goon squad lol

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    My posts on the other hand....wellll theyr'e a bit mundane and boring.....i think there interesting....but meh!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Fishing for a compliment there Nev?...lol Maybe if you shave your legs, put on some sexy black stockings and high heels...very very High heels....you will draw a bigger audience who will most definately confirm your posts are anything BUT boring and miundane....now theres an image.....LOL...

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    hi thought id join the convo if im aloud lol n wat im i doin up this late.

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    It's 5am! Ok, this is getting ridiculous! Far too much time spent on he who shall remain nameless....sleep would be a good thing right about now...besides, my toes are cold! Thanks for the debrief Nev! I weel  say zis only once, so leeesten very carefully, you are a legend! (guess the tv show reference..lol)  J xxxx

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    with Renee, in Fraunce in zeee Cafe with ze resistaaunce!  and if hadn't been up for 21 hours i might even be able to remember ze name of ze show!Crap its getting light outside, time this little black duck was also in bed!Cheers Nev

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Well Mz J you social scientist I live my life is a consent state of confusion when it comes to people let alone the opposite sex. At 3 am I can see how you are dazed as well. ciao bellaHermes

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    and yes, I HAVE been to bed and i am now up...damn roosters....hmmm...where's me axe...???.......>>>....searching bathroom for axe...nope, not there...ahhh...must still be in the.....hehe...firstly nev...my god mate...what you doing up at that ungodly hour...and where's ya lovely lady...ya should be giving her the nudge, nudge, wink, wink....are you awake routine...actually...there are far nicer ways to wake her up....giggles...and myname....that's a sheer bummer....not sure what ya had going wif ol' he-shall-remain-nameless...but lemons ta him fa leaving such a cheeky gal as you...mind ya i know ha ya is feeling...well...just a wee bit anway...few months ago i was chatting ta a lovely lady in here...emails, texts, phone calls....then one day...boom....nothing...not a peep....not a word....and i know she ain't dead or sumfink cos she beenchatting away on msn...sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....all i can say....oops, nearly said the dreaded "hun" word....get out that fishing rod, dig up some words (aka worms)...urkkk...bait the hook....get out a good book, the armchair, a nice drink in a long tall glass, wif one of those funky straws...ya straw hat, the suntan lotion, ya bikini....mmmmmm.....>>>...puts hand up ta apply suntan lotion....and start fishin' again...hugs and kissesjose...

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    I have had a similar thing happen with a fellow I've known for close to twenty years.   It has been a lovely friendship but I find it frustratign the way he disapears in and out of my life, almost like he falls off the face of the earth.   Thing is I know why this is but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with, he is bi-polar and its when he is having trouble with his meds that he goes underground.   I've stopped trying to communicate, if and when he wants to get in touch I imagine he will...   hugs for you MyName xxx

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Oh whatta night! Still dazed and totally confused BUT, I sit here and feel a rush of a different kind. A much, much better one than that I experienced only a few short hours ago. Elledee, Trish, Nev & of course Jose' with the mostay! Your responses brought tears to my eyes & GI J just does't do that! (lol) I can only justify a response of this nature by admitting yet again to the V word. Not such a bad thing really, considering the benefits since owning it & received thus far. Elledee, friendship does bring a totally different set of expectations to the table & when faced with confusing & unsolicited actions on behalf of the other person, it is a very destabilizing event. You have your answer now and made a very wise decision. I am celebrating right alongside of you and gratefully accept your hug xx Trish, you nailed it. Coherant thought and interpretation of same alluded me in the early hours of the morning. Unconditional offering of oneself to another is a very humbling experience & when treated with such disdain and contempt by the receiver, following  initial acceptance and reciprocated with a level of intensity I've not experienced before, does hurt, a lot. In conclusion, whilst I may be a bit battered and bruised your words, understanding and compassion bring me back to some semblance of 'normalcy'...some kind of wonderful My heartfelt thanks to you all xx

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    What a funny show! Addendum: Take the e out of mean and ya get what? Bloody hell dazed,confused and illiterate! lol..take the A (cringes) luv2ply: come one come all...everyone is welcome aboard the thready train..destination unknown! toot toot! Hermes: c'mere big boy...I need a 'snuggle'..LOL

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Oh for fuck sake hon, if you had a dick your hand would be around it when you wrote this post, so pull your knickers back up because vulnerability is for romantic saps that care about other people and have a heart.   Hugs and snuggles Stalky

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    GI J re entering earths orbit...down...down...down.. CRRRRRRRRASH.......geez thanks Stalky...I really needed that....romance...euww...!! Now, what was that your were saying about a dick in the hand is worth two in the bush?? Nah, that cant be right....I needs me smarties!

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    > Sometimes, people underestimate the value of friendship. I have learned, not to let sex, >  get in the way of a good friendship. Lovers come and go, true friends, are forever... > especially those with shapely legs and bums, that wiggle...   Aww thanks for the compliment customer69. But really I don't think my bum is that shapley.

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Well GI J - at least there was a reciprocated connection, from what you were able to tell... Hope the guy does not let us down and can actually follow through..

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    hallelujah! praise the lord....I am not insane, at least not totally! Extremely validating to read words which echo my sentiments, beliefs and values from people I hold in high regard. Cheers Trish, am lovin your mind as well as your body and I promise not to use you and spit you out...cos I swallow.. Capt, a wiggling psychotherapist??....Am lovin it...so when am I booked in for my first session?...

  • RHP

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    16 years ago

    Quoting 'djdride80'Well GI J - at least there was a reciprocated connection, from what you were able to tell... Hope the guy does not let us down and can actually follow through.. Welcome to thready town DJ! Are we collectively picking your thready cherrie? Mmm Yum! In answer to your question: Nah...aint gunna happen... what is it that 'they' say..once bitten...lives on to bite another day!!? Call me...call me NOW! (joking lol)