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Sandcastles on Chessboards

January 04 2010

So I was going to do this whole post on how sal wants me to fuck a guy in the ass while he fucks her. But it seems so shallow and unnecessary. I have this thing running around in my head. It's kind of two ideas and this is abit deep, but stick with me. I've noticed of late some posts on sadness, and depression. I think I might have been depressed last year, not sure but i'm okay now. ANYWAY .... my theory. Sandcastles on Chessboards. So you're born, let's pretend that you are the king or queen on the chessboard of your life. BUT all the other pieces are your family and your friends. These make the castles, bishops, rooks, pawns. These are all made up of sand-sculptures. As you get on with life your side is fine, you're childhood is full of fantastic stuff (hopefully) Christmas is great you get lots of presents and you believe in magic and all that sort of thing. Then depending on fate, you lose a piece. Granddad, Uncle ... damn that hurt, their sandcastle shimmers away as the sand flies off. YOu look around for the first time and gulp. LIfe goes on, ups and down and around we go, bit by bit the sandcastles around you vanish. Dad, Nan, Father in Law... And there's not a lick of difference you can do. Other than stopping your dad from smoking, or making your nan or mum go to the gym to work off their excess weight. Nothing, out of your hands... these are the bad times. So what do you do... cause these bad times are going to happen with or without your help. I had this motivation ending - "If you don't make your own good times, you've only got the bad times to come." What do we think? Is that something that is a sort of cool concept. Does it need work. Or is it a load of old bollocks. I would love to write this down one day, as if it was some great advice for my son. I'm sorry next post will be much sexier than this. :) Andy

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16 years ago

My chessboard's a mess, but I'll do y'all a favour and not go into that. Still it is the basis of the point that I would like to introducePart of what I think you're missing from your scenario is that we can add to the chessboard of our lives. Friends, lovers, family to be, children. Unless that is what you mean by making your own good times lol. ;-)I love the concept of a jigsaw at times and more suited in this case perhaps, a tapestry... Cheers

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16 years ago

Hi Guys it a great post and I do like the sandcastles analogy. In a general way I agree with you. We have to make things happen for our selves and many of can and do. Depression how ever I an entirly different thing and its affects can be far reaching on people. Those who suffer from real depression just can't seem to be able to do anything about it. To them it is like they are a pawn on the chess board and all the other pieces come from a game of Mouse Trap. Every thing around them is wrong. I am lucky not have personally suffered this sort of debilatating illness, but I know a freind of mine does. Beyond Blue is a wonderful organisation that helps out the victims and the frieds of people who suffer depression. Sorry to bring a downer to your post guys... OK Lets all get Happy now :) LC

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16 years ago

Well working from LoveCurvie's post... a pawn works for me... my chessboard was wiped clear in the first year of my life {the pieces were put away in a box maybe to be reintroduced and again removed at different times in the future, not dead but as good as}, then new pieces were added in the form of a foster family around the age of 2. Those pieces removed themselves from my board gradually starting from the age of ten cos I was too much trouble, that's what they said at least. My board was clear again from the age of 15 aside from one piece in the form of a foster-brother until I started adding pieces in my 20s, in the way of Mr P' and children, that are now still on my board lol. That was the time I would have thought I'd be the happiest, but then my sand castle somewhat crumbled and my world that I had put all that effort into making things happen became in my own mind nothing but a fantasy as the demons from the past finally gained a foothold and I allowed myself to feel the huge pain that had so long lived inside. All brought up for me in the last couple of years as I went through the process of completing a compensation form that involved not only describing the abuses and or neglect I suffered as a 'child in care' but also the effects on me physically, emotionally, spitually, sexually etc etc... My foster parents even changed my name on all my records during the time I lived with them and mine is not by any stretch of the imagination an isolated case. I finished the form in the last couple of months and I was pretty rocky for a while there... doing a lot better now. Thank you to all that care.Thanks for the opportunity to share, probably way off track but I wanted to share an example of an incredibly complicated chessboard with an excess of pieces stored away somewhere I guess lololol... the ultimate soapie with characters from the past all ready to enter from the wings at any moment.Cheers Deb

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16 years ago

Funny thing is I am not sure salAndy would have guess this thread would take this sort of a turn. It is good you chose the share I think it always is a chance it will help other people. I liked the chess board senario, but it can be viewed from many different perspectives I thnk. Mike

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16 years ago

I should have just stuck with my original post, but aaah well. If, buts and maybes are a tad too late hehe.I'd really be interested to hear other peoples takes on this topic brought up by SalAndy... I'm fond of the whole soapie scenario myself lol. But other people must have interesting views on sandcastles on chessboards!Hugs... Mrs P'

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16 years ago

If I remember rightly, a pawn reaching the other side of the board can be 'queened' where the pawn is then replaced by the queen... that fits right in doesn't it!

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16 years ago

You're extraordinarily brave, Deb. A fresh breeze from the west as always! Hugs Stalky

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16 years ago

Just wanted to say that I loved what Deb wrote. I was going to leave this a few days for anymore comments, but this thread is dead. I wish I could do this great 3d image of my family tree all pieces on a chessboard, how cool would that family tree be. andy

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